Tape 1

How it started

The funniest bit is that Gleb is the best song i've ever written, nothing has topped Gleb, I have written over 300 songs and counting and not one of them is better than Gleb. If Gleb has million fans, I am one of them. If Gleb has one fan, than I am that one fan. If Gleb has no fans then I AM DEAD. I have strong opinions on what makes art good, people don't like them, so I won't say them here.

So there I was, septemberish of 2021. Going into Junior year, I had just gotten a scarlet solo for my birthday a few months before and I was finally recording music that I wrote. As opposed to music I didn't write, which I also didn't record, anyway. Didn't have a name yet, went through a couple,

Anthrezine
Monarchs K.I.A
Public Security
Hippie Death Camp
The Sex Defenders

But Phosphorus was the longest running name I had, even did some album cover designs, but anyway it wouldn't have any real name at this point.

So back to the tape, I called them tapes because they were always just demo collections to me, not albums. I always intended to go back and rerecord them later but since they I have grown attached to them and don't want to change them, so it's whatever.

The whole thing was recorded in cakewalk, using all the built in vst. Guitars and bass were done in TH3, some of the bass tracks are actually done on guitar and then pitch shifted down, which I would do a lot of because I didn't own my own bass and just borrowed my brothers.

The tracks are pretty shit in recording quality but I think it was some of my most interesting and original writing.

Submarine, was one of my favorites. I spent like 5 minutes coming up with the main part and then hours trying to figure out the second half, eventually I decided to just go ahead and record it and went downstairs to get my brothers bass. Shortly after picking it up I played the riff that would become the second half of submarine, and boom, songs done.

Enthusia is one of the oldest songs I have, I don't even remember when I wrote it. I know that it was heavily inspired by "Even In His Youth" by nirvana, obviously. I wrote the lyrics for it first and then never recorded them. Many such cases.

Grouping I remember nothing about, do love the bass work on it, I was so on it, I was so kino.

Talinn was heavily inspired by "exhausted" by the foo fighters. I actually didn't like this song at all but I made a vow to record any song and if it was bad wait at least 6 months to delete it. I think its not that bad now, just boring.

Untitled Song 21 is boring too. I don't remember much about writing it, so it's whatever.

Disdain for the Mentally Retarded is KINO. Certified hood classic. I don't remember much of this one either, so it's whatever, but I always liked the energy.

Modern Art is one of the latter ones I did, I don't think the bass is real on this one either. I remember thinking about my highschool science wing when I wrote it. I don't know why. This one deserved to be rerecorded it was good, sadly I don't care enough to bother!

Johhny Got His Baseball Bat! love this one, so good. I was so on it. The developing guitar line was thought up on the spot, it was originally going to just be bass for the verse sections. This is another one I want to redo, I think its still on the best songs I've written.

Type A Type B. Now would be a good time to mention that around this time I was writing almost 1 song every day. Sometimes 2. I would record a lot of them shortly after writing them. I had crazy energy and actual enthusiam to do things back then. Absolutely wild, did not know what I had. Anyway, this song is boring, and I never liked it all that much.

Mexico. This one was the last one I wrote to get on this tape if I remember right. Either that or it was near. Very simple, I wanted a basic non-confrontational grunge song that I could show people. Something boring that people with no taste would think is good because it doesn't challenge them. Proper baby food tier waste of time and effort and now it disgusts me.

Misleading Name, There Was No Rave. I have nothing to say about this one.

Panic Attack is another old one. The first version was recorded on bandcamp in like april of 2021. Very simple riff but I always liked it. I wrote a few different sets of lyrics but I could never decide on one. I am constantly torn between self aware and serious lyrics. Very difficult being me. If it's not obvious I had no idea how to bring the parts together, and sort of stapled them together as I went and the drums god fucking damn the DRUMS. Those fucking cymbals are evil, should have been shot.

Adrift was heavily inspired by queens of the stone age. It should be obvious which album. The single bass riff was a terrible idea, does not work at all.

I already talked about Gleb but I will keep talking about Gleb. Love Gleb, so much. This one definitely had no real bass on it. Love the clean tones I got for it, reminds me a lot of the sound on the "Clean Up Before She Comes" hometape. Which I think I heard before I wrote it? maybe not? I can't remember but I think I already heard it by that point so its whatever. The energy I had on those guitar parts is some of the best I ever got. Originally the chorus didn't have any open strings but I played it like that by accident and realized I had to keep them like that, so I redid all the tracks and let that high gain do what its best at. The Solo was amazing, and I have never been able to recreate. I never wrote it down. I did rerecord Gleb some time later, with a couple other songs, I think submarine was one. Anyway, I couldn't get the solo right on the rerecord so I ended up just using the original audiotrack and just layering some effects on it to make it sound less rough.

September song sounded nothing like I was expecting it to sound. I wanted a much more modern post-emo sound but I was a retarded child and didn't know shit about mixing and couldn't make anything that required an IQ above 8 and also, I didn't know how to play any of that stuff, so I had no idea how to write it.

Cattle Enthusiasm. Cattle Enthusiasm.